Jan. 2nd 2004

Well its the second day of the year, Friday. I have to go back to work today which is bad enough, another year starts on the grindstone. Depression has set in now. I am suppose to be quitting smoking, which I have failed at so far. My wife once again is disappointed, I feel guilty. Not only am I not doing the butt out thing but the rest of my life is a shambles as well. My children are the only bright lights in my life right now, but it doesn't seem to be enough to keep me on track. I owe money, our headlights need to be fixed, money is so scarce I'm not even sure why I go to work at all. Well off to work have to finish this later.