Jan 1st 2004 Well a new year has begun and like most new years I'm trying to change myself, for the better of course. The day started off really good, I got up late in the morning, had coffee played around with the kids a bit. I went out to buy some wood for the fireplace so that we could enjoy a nice fire on new years day. The wife barely scrapped enough together to get it down at 7-11. I'm supposed to quit smoking today. I have been doing quite well with it so far and only smoked 2 cigs sin...

Jan. 2nd 2004 Well its the second day of the year, Friday. I have to go back to work today which is bad enough, another year starts on the grindstone. Depression has set in now. I am suppose to be quitting smoking, which I have failed at so far. My wife once again is disappointed, I feel guilty. Not only am I not doing the butt out thing but the rest of my life is a shambles as well. My children are the only bright lights in my life right now, but it doesn't seem to be enough to keep me on tr...